| Location | Manchester |
| Age | 0 |
| Cause of Death | Still Birth |
| Date of Birth | 13/03/2009 |
| Date of Death | 13/03/2009 |
| Visitors | 2,576 since 23/03/2009 |
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My Angel Tamara was born 13.03.09 at 12.22am weighing 8lb 1oz, 56cm long. She was born sleeping.
Heres our story.....
I had a terrible pregnancy with Tamara from 12 weeks onwards. I had a low placenta which resulted in two bleeds where I spent weeks on end in hospital. I got the best news ever two days before xmas, I was allowed home after nearly 3 weeks in hospital and that the baby was fine and everything should be ok. I returned for a scan to check the placenta position at 34 weeks and they found there was abnormal blood flow to the baby through the cord. They said the baby wasn't growing properly but to come back the next week for another scan.
Every week was the same. Bad news but they just sent me home and said they would induce me at 39 weeks or before but I definately wouldn't go over 39 weeks. I begged them every week to induce me as I had bad thoughts that blood supply would be cut short. They didn't seem too bothered and every time still sent me home!!!
I was 38 weeks and 6 days when I went to be checked ready for induction. I was so excited. It was getting close now so no more worrying wether we'd last another week. I was devastated when they told me the doctor was off and to come back for another scan...on my due date! I begged and begged them but they just refused to induce me.
I went home so scared and returned on my due date and once again I had scan, monitoring and then was sent home! I gave up pleading by this point. In 10 more days they would have to induce me anyway and 10 days didn't seem too far away when I'd got through the past 7 months. I had to return for monitoring every other day and so I did.
I was 6 days over when I was concered about movements. My baby seemed so lathargic. I was told not to worry as it could be a good sign I will soon go into labour. The doctor came to see me and told me he wouldn't induce me for another 4 days. The next day my baby died!!!!
I hadn't felt her move from the wednesday night and at half 9 on the thursady I went in as I was fearing the worst. I was left 10 mins while they waited for a monitor. I broke down in hysterics so they got a hand held monitor. There was no heartbeat so I was rushed in for scan. It was all a blur but I do remember somebody saying they were sorry. I screamed.
I was induced at 4.30pm and gave birth to Tamara at 12.22am Friday 13th March 2009.
She was perfect in every way.
Why did this happen???? We still have no answers. They should have induced me surely!!!
My beautiful angel too precious for this earth. Loved and missed very much by her Mummy and Daddy, Sisters Courtney and Morgain and brother Ike. Grandma and Grandad. Auntie Sarah. Uncle David and Aunty Becky and Cousin Demi. And lots and lots of friends who cared.
You are in our hearts forever little darling and we will never forget you ever xxxxx
Although we didnt get the chance,
to take your tiny hand
And lead you through the childhood
which together we had planned
And though there really wasn't
chance to show you all the love
Now sent to you abundantly
borne upwards by the dove
Remember, darling that
your tiny heart must know
That we will always
treasure you
and your memory
will grow
Sweet dreams little angel xxxx
My Beautiful Baby Angel
Can't believe you are 2 tomorrow Tamara. Love you and miss you sooo much everyday. You will never leave my heart. All My love Mummy xxxxxxxxx
Precious Child by Karen Taylor Good
In my dreams, you are alive and well
Precious child, precious child
In my mind, I see you clear as a bell
Precious child, precious child
In my soul, there is a hole
That can never be filled
But in my heart, there is hope
'Cause you are with me still
In my heart, you live on
Always there never gone
Precious child, you left too soon
Tho' it may be true that we're apart
You will live forever... in my heart
In my plans, I was the first to leave
Precious child, precious child
But in this world, I was left here to grieve
Precious child, my precious child
In my soul, there is a hole
That can never be filled
But in my heart there is hope
And you are with me still
In my heart you live on
Always there, never gone
Precious child, you left too soon,
Tho' it may be true that we're apart
You will live forever... in my heart
God knows I want to hold you,
See you, touch you
And maybe there's a heaven
And someday I will again
Please know you are not forgotten until then
In my heart you live on
Always there never gone
Precious child, you left too soon
Tho' it may be true that we're apart
You will live forever... in my heart
A Birthday In Heaven - by Kris Smith
I heard you crying yesterday,
And felt your heart-sent love.
So I’m sending you this message
Now, from Heaven up above.
You’re wondering if I’ll celebrate
My Birthday (way up here).
I know you’re missing me today
I feel your essence near.
God planned a special day for me,
He told me with a wink.
He’d ordered me a special cake
(It’s Angel food, I think).
Balloons will fill the streets for me,
They float up through the clouds.
And we have lots of friends up here
That make us laugh out loud.
There is a Birthday carousel,
Jewelled horses ride the wind,
With music playing, oh so sweet…
The magic never ends.
I’ve made so many friends, you see
We laugh and play and sing.
We ride our bikes and play jump rope
And sleep in Angel’s wings.
We’ll have our cake and ice cream
And open gifts - SURPRISE!
But we don’t blow out our candles here
Instead, they light the skies.
With love from your little Angel XX
Happy Birthday My Angel
It's been a year since I've touched you,
Held you tightly in my arms,
There is nothing that I can do,
But hold you closely to my heart.
And now my Tamara you are ONE,
A celebration there will be,
But not with balloons and banners,
And not a birthday tea.
Just a quiet little remembrance,
Of the time I had with you,
For these memories mean a lot to me,
This much I know is true.
Even though you are not here,
You’re still the 'BIRTHDAY GIRL',
You are in gods arms now,
looking down upon my world.
I will never forget,
But always remember,
The time we did have,
And always will have together.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY
angel baby. xx
gone but never forgotton about. ur mummy and daddy were so proud of you i am sure you are happy where you are now with no pain or hurt. just always remember to look down on ur mummy, daddy and sisters and your bother to from all the way up in heaven coz its up to u now to look after them! r. i. p. angel baby tamara. xxxxx
A little angel up above looking down with love.
An angel came for you Tamara and when she lifted you she said
"Too beautiful for this earth"
Sleep tight wee one
When I think back on these times
And the dreams we left behind
I’ll be glad ‘cause I was blessed to get
To have you in my life
When I look back on these days
I’ll look and see your face
You were right there for me
In my dreams I’ll always see you soar above the sky
In my heart there’ll always be a place for you for all my life
I’ll keep a part of you with me
And everywhere I am there you’ll be
Everywhere I am there you’ll be
Well you showed me how it feels
To feel the sky within my reach
And I always will remember all
The strength you gave to me
Your love made me make it through
Ohh I owe so much to you
You were right there for me
In my dreams I’ll always see you soar above the sky
In my heart there’ll always be a place for you for all my life
I’ll keep a part of you with me
And everywhere I am there you’ll be
Everywhere I am there you'll be
‘Cause I always saw in you my light, my strength
And I want to thank you now for all the ways
You were right there for me, you were right there for me
always
In my dreams I’ll always see you soar above the sky
In my heart there’ll always be a place for you for all my life
I’ll keep a part of you with me
And everywhere I am there you’ll be
And everywhere I am there you’ll be
"I'll lend to you for a little time,
A child of mine," God said,
"For you to love while she lives
And mourn for when she's dead."
"It may be six or seven years
Or twenty-two or three,
But will you till I call her back,
Take care of her for me?"
"She'll bring her charms to gladden you
And should her stay be brief,
You'll have these precious memories
To comfort you through grief."
"I cannot promise she will stay
Since all from earth return.
But there are lessons taught down there
I want this child to learn."
"I've looked this world over,
In my search for teachers true.
In the crowds of this great land,
I have selected you."
"Now will you give her all your love
Not think the labor vain,
Nor hate me when I come to call
To take her back again?"
FOR MY SWEET ANGEL
It seems to me I heard them say,
"Dear Lord, thy will be done.
For all the joys a child shall bring,
The risk of grief we'll run."
"We'll shelter her with tenderness,
We'll love her while we may,
And for the happiness we've known
Forever grateful stay."
"And should the angels call for her
Much sooner than we've planned,
We'll brave the bitter grief that comes
And try to understand."
A poem for Mummy and Daddy xxx
Don’t let them say I wasn’t born,
That something stopped my heart
I felt each tender squeeze you gave,
I’ve loved you from the start.
Although my body you can’t hold
It doesn’t mean I’m gone
This world was worthy, not of me
God chose that I move on.
I know the pain that drowns your soul,
What you are forced to face
You have my word, I’ll fill your arms,
Someday we will embrace.
You’ll hear that it was meant to be,
God doesn’t make mistakes
But that wont soften your worst blow,
Or make your heart not ache.
I’m watching over all you do,
Another child you’ll bear
Believe me when I say to you,
That I am always there.
There will come a time, I promise you,
When you will hold my hand,
Stroke my face and kiss my lips
And then you’ll understand.
Although I’ve never breathed your air,
Or gazed into your eyes
That doesn’t mean I never was,
An Angel never dies.
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